Standing on the edge of the Jordan I find that I’m filled with anticipation and fear. Looking across the river I know a land of blessing and promise awaiting us. Joshua tells us to be strong and courageous, but I struggle to find the same courage that he has. I know he is God’s man to replace Moses. When he speaks he inspires courage in me; courage to do things I never would have imagined at age 25.
My father told me story after story of my people’s history, and on this day I can’t help but remember how my grandfathers’ generation demonstrated fearfulness with given the same opportunity I am being given today. Instead of possessing a land, they became cowards.
My dad was five years old when he left Egypt. He was there when Moses led my people across the Red Sea. He told me the story growing up, but even he wasn’t sure how much he actually remembered and how much of the story was painted in his mind as he listened to my grandfather recall the story in vivid detail. My grandfather was about thirty when he witnessed the destruction of Egypt and crossed the Red Sea, so the details of those events were forever etched in his mind and he was a great story teller. When Moses finally finished writing down the story for us I was amazed at the accuracy of my grandfather’s memory.
My father and I buried Grandfather a short time ago. Most of his life was spent wandering in that godforsaken wilderness, filled with regret that he had not been a part of the generation that would establish a kingdom in the land God promised our people. He had not been able to lead his family into a covenant relationship with God, the opportunity I am being given today. I remember one time he told me he would have rather drowned in the Jordan than die slowly in the wilderness. I never forgot that. Life is too short to not obey God. His generation feared giants when they should have feared God.
I look over and see my wife, the person God has entrusted to me and the one God has given to help me. She looks to me for leadership, to be the man of our family. She knows my weaknesses and shortcomings, but still follows me with all her heart. Looking down into the eyes of my children I see complete dependency. To them I am everything. Their future, their relationship with God, the kingdom God desires them to inhabit, the covenant relationship God desires for them to embrace, it all depends largely on the courage I must demonstrate today.
I know that on the other side of Jordan lie enemies. They will do everything in their power to destroy my family. They wait in strongholds, fortified cities, and they are seasoned for war. I feel so inadequate to the task, and so undeserving of the responsibility. Part of me feels afraid. But I will not be controlled by fear. I will not be a coward. I believe God has spoken, and although I do not feel prepared I believe God is leading me to wage war for his kingdom, for his people, and for my family. Today I will CROSSOVER.
Crossover, a young married Ministry Fellowship, will begin in January. Couples where either spouse is 34 or younger, with or without children, are invited to attend. Crossover will be taught by Jeff Cox; more details coming soon.
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